non believers

if you believe that this is just because
you are sorely mistaken and not the only one
i do not want this mess of emotions
i dont want this life full of depression
if it was so easy to just let go
dont you think i would have done it buy now
why hang on to all the things that hurt
im not a sick freak that enjoys the ride
i wanna be better
but im strucken ill
i take all those fucking meds "i dont need"
cause they help me get by
why does it matter to you
what i do
its not your life let me be and do what i do
even if those pills are just made of sugar
and its all in my head that its making me better
then why not let me take the damn things
isnt my happiness supposed to be an important thing?
im sick of hearing just let it go
im sick of hearing just get over it
if it was that easy to let it go...
i would have packed it up long ago and shipped it the fuck off
lost iy in memories where i wouldnt remember...
never bring it up ever...
quit telling me to silence myself...
everyone needs an outlet
except the souless
sorry im not perfect
fake likesome
making others miserable by being so unconcerned
what if im crying out for a help in desperate need
what if you ignore me
and i kill myself the next day?
so what right? im just crazy
what if it was just one person i needed to listen to me....
we feel emotions stronger than you were not empty inside and cold to the urn
its  a matter of being sympathetic...
give a listening ear... being important to someone...
then they need you near and dear...
quit feeding your bullshit that they are just playing a game
that its all in their head and just to get the fuck over it...
it does no good to a sick person when no one understands...
sometimes we truly believe that this day is the end...
we worry about stuff that seems silly to you but to us its a reaslity and its all becoming true...
we cry tears that hold pain and regret
but crying to you is such bullshit...
i hope one day you feel a sadness so deep that the day is long and you weep
i hope it eats you like a disease.
fills you heart and soul with blackness
and you see the end become...
you feel the hope leave your life
i hope you feel that life is not worth it and waking up is a curse...
just so you know for a moment that this is a real fucking disease not just a measly head game.