Unsettled 12/23/10

fear it creeps.

for im a wandering soul

i do not know whats a ahead of me

i dont know the taken toll

i run but feel i get nowhere

as if im running in place

absent cities beyond me

everyone without a face

im scare i cannot do this

give up what i love

change my behavior

im half tempted to ask for help from above

fate has left me wondering

is my life been real

just thinking it be ok

if i had another then i could just feel

sleep seems like the answer

to make the ever binding cure

to make it all go away

but andy would leave for sure

i just wanna ignore

all the harmful pain

just one more day of absense

then i could be sane...

days are hard to live

without a single cause

feeling like im wasting space

wishing i could just pause

i dont know if my will 

is strong enough to fight

but im pushing and pulling

with all my damn might

every waking second

i feel like its disbelief

my life in crumbles

i need some relief

i need something to cure me

something to make it go away

to take all the hurt i have felt

but theres nothing one can say

i just wish i could feel

feel better for one damn day

nothing eating at me

but i just cry as i lay

heres my ending of this all

i am saddened and in pain

i do not want this

death though i will refrain...